Post by lilystar on Oct 11, 2012 19:55:56 GMT -5
the shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe ╰☆╮
NAME I'm usually just known as Lilystar, but a few close friends call me Lily.
oh, you're that interested in me? well here's my tracker, then!
GENDER Well I thought you could already tell... I'm a female, silly.
CLAN ThunderClan - simply that.
RANK The best of the best: the leader.
APPRENTICE Minnowpaw; she and I have yet to build a, er, solid relationship.
AGE I'm four years young. Got it?
DESCRIPTION a slim, pretty silver tabby she-cat with seductive ocean blue eyes.
ROLE PLAYER Max.
APPEARANCE Lilystar is, to say the least, a very pretty she-cat. Many toms - especially the more daring ones - give her second glances; and some of the really daring ones muster up the courage to hit on her. What with her slender body, sleek tabby pelt, and piercing blue eyes, she's a real catch. That is, if you can catch her.
Her silver fur is short and shiny, always kept to perfection by daily grooming and upkeep. It's painted with dark black tabby markings, lacing in symmetry across her back, face, and tail. Each of her paws is dipped in pleasant creamy white.
She has more of a small, skinny build than a compact, muscular build. However, her small body gives her great speed and agility, a skill that can be used to her advantage in a fight with slower cats. She has long legs which give her a great stride but does cause her to fumble every now and then.
PERSONALITY
funny +[/i] It isn't uncommon for Lilystar to crack a joke at random times; in fact, although she's a leader, she is fairly fond of jokes, and loves to have a good laugh every now and then. She hates the tedious workings of her boring life and spices it up a little bit with her sense of humor. She'll often break the ice at Gatherings with it (no matter how many cats glare at her for it). She is actually a very good-natured she-cat, as long as you're agreeable.
loyal +[/i] If Lilystar feels you're someone worth liking, she'll instantly give you her unending dedication - and as long as you don't get on her nerves, it's not hard to gain her as an ally. If you need someone to talk to, she's your best bet, seeing as she has experience far beyond her age and is in touch with her emotions. Because of this, she is extremely dedicated to her Clan - a trait valuable to leaders - and would never try to harm it. ThunderClan knows that they can talk to her about anything and she'll try to understand. YOU just have to understand that some of the bad things she does are for the sake of ThunderClan... even if they're not always agreeable.
manipulative -[/i] One thing that isn't liked about her is Lilystar's manipulative tricks. You can tell from the sly glimmer in her eyes that she is a mischievous she-cat. It is well-known that this Clan leader is a bit of a seductress. She can woo toms with her good looks and alluring voice. She can easily do as much for she-cats with her clever mind and strategic people skills. However, she feels as if real love is pointless - and doesn't see herself ever falling in love (nor is she allowed to).
Honestly, she'll do anything to gain what she wants - especially for her Clan - even if it includes using her body. Some even say she earned her position by seducing the former leader, a tom named Adderstar... which isn't entirely false.
depressed -[/i] Lilystar constantly suffers from depression - sometimes it's severe, but that's only when something bad happens. Sometimes she'll just wake up one day but not want to get up, and instead mope around. She is very sensitive - not physically, but emotionally. She can take real, solid, concrete pain; but when others insult her, she pretends it means nothing to her, while inwardly it is tearing her apart. Although she is beautiful, and she knows it, she is very insecure, and hates herself in every way. Sometimes she may brag or seem arrogant to try to feel better and more important than she really feels. That's also why she abuses her body the way she does. Sometimes she even hurts herself purposely, such as digging her claws into her chest or biting her tongue until it bleeds. It's something that distracts her from her depression and even suppresses her anger at times.
carefree +/-[/i] While Lilystar does have a darker side, she doesn't like to burden others with her issues and instead likes to listen to their gossip and help others out. She always approaches life with a loose perspective; she would rather gossip with she-cats about the latest hot-shot toms, joke around with others, or lure in unsuspecting males with her devilish good looks than do work. Which is good and bad: she doesn't suffer from stress, but at the same time doesn't have enough of it. Occasionally she has to be urged on to do work by her deputy or other peers before she finally does it - either because she's depressed or she's just being downright lazy.
HISTORY
Lilystar's story starts when she was only a kit. Her mother, Flowerdance, was a she-cat just as beautiful as she, kind and graceful and alluring. On the other hand, her father, Kestrelwing, was cruel, abusive, and domineering. And there was also another small issue to the matter...
Lilystar's mother was a medicine cat.
"Flowerdance, do you understand the consequences of your actions?"
The gray tabby lowered her green eyes to the ground. "Yes, Adderstar," she responded sullenly.
I tilted my head curiously. Why does Adderstar sound mad at momma? She hasn't done anything wrong! I felt the urge to run up and nuzzle against her pelt; she looked so lost and forlorn, sitting in the center of the camp, everyone's eyes pinpointed on her. But I kept my rump glued to the ground, at the front of the Clan, obeying her order to stay still. I looked around, my eyes scanning the crowd, falling upon a familiar dark brown figure. My father. Kestrelwing looked furious. His blue eyes were flaming with disgust and remorse, his claws sheathing and unsheathing as if he wished to dig them into something. He met my gaze, and I cowered as even more hatred filled his eyes. I looked away, back towards Adderstar.
I stiffened as the leader's eyes focused on me. Was I in trouble too? "It is not Lilykit's fault for your mistakes. She will be permitted to stay."
Where was he going with this?
"As for you, Flowerdance... I'm sorry."
What was he saying?
It looked as if he were barely forcing the words out now. "You are banned from ThunderClan."
Why did he say that?
"NO!!" I screeched, my loyalty to Flowerdance's orders broken. I rushed forward, pushing my face into her fur. "You can't go. They can't do this to you!" I shouted.
"I know," she murmured softly, lowering her muzzle to my head and licking me gently. I felt her warm tears fall on my head. "But I have to. I'm not the one in charge."
Her warm scent surrounded me, brief and longing, full of love and safety. I whined as it faded away, as well as the heat of her body as she moved back. She met my eyes, reflecting my pain in her green orbs. "Be strong, little one. No matter where I am, always know where your heart is. I'm always here for you... even if you can't see me."
I nodded, too choked up to respond. I felt my paws become glued to the ground as she reluctantly turned and promptly exited the camp. A morbid silence followed her absence.
I felt anger and remorse rush through me. I turned my glare to Adderstar. This didn't have to happen. None of it.
fast forward to lilykit's apprenticeship; 8 moons old
"Hey Lilypaw, I know you're sad about your mom, but that doesn't mean you have to be so -"
I closed my eyes and sighed in frustration. "Shut up," I snapped to the agitating tom trying to hit on me. Not now, not ever, I thought, looking him up and down. Disgusting fool.
I whisked my tail in his face dismissively and trotted out of the camp. I was done with this - everything was just so meaningless now. Why should I owe anything to this stupid Clan? They turned their backs on me - on mother - when we needed it. I hate everything. I hate everyone.
My irritable thoughts were shattered by a loud yowl of pain. My ears stood up, and I rushed toward the sound. Someone's in trouble!
I saw two dim figures in a small clearing up ahead. Thinking quickly, I quietly dove into a bush and peeked out. A large figure, probably a tom, circled around a muddled heap on the ground.
"You think you can just walk in here? After all you've done?" He spat. "You're nothing but a stupid slut!" Wait... was that Kestrelwing? My dad?
His paw shot out, catching the lump of fur on the ground on the head. A pained whimper emitted from the battered cat. That sound. That voice. It all sounded familiar.
"MOM!" I screamed, shooting out from the bush and launching into my father. "What in StarClan's name are you doing?!" I shouted at him as he stumbled across the clearing. I turned to the heap of messy fur on the ground. I could smell her scent - and her blood.
"Mom," my voice croaked. I bent down to rub my head against her broken body. "Oh, mom," I muttered brokenly.
She was dead.
A dark laughter chimed nearby. I looked up, feeling a tremor of fear at the huge figure towering over me. My own father had done this. He had killed mother. And now he was going to kill me.
"She deserved it, tarnishing my image like that," he growled. "Told everyone what we did. Now they all think I'm a loser, taking advantage of pretty she-cats. And it's your fault she's gone; you were nothing more than a mistake."
"Mom loved me, and you NEVER did!" I yowled back. "You didn't even raise a claw to help us! If you didn't want her to go, then you should've denied it when Adderstar asked you! You fox-hearted traitor!" I charged into him, fueled by rage. I knew he would overpower me easily, but right now, I didn't care whether I lived or died. I just wanted to hurt someone. Bad.
I bit into his shoulder, and he batted me away like a fly. I flew across the clearing, hitting the ground with a painful thump. My body felt weak. I tried in vain to lift myself up. The dark brown tom lumbered towards me, his blue eyes cruel. I never knew he was like this. I always avoided him, like momma said.
"What's going on here?!" A familiar shout echoed through the clearing. I looked up, met with the sight of Adderstar and a patrol of cats. He looked at me, concern in his eyes, and then looked at the dead body lying in the center of the dusty clearing. Pain lanced through his expression, and he and the patrol attacked the tom who had caused this whole mess.
As they fought, I slowly regained enough strength to rise to my paws. My mind drifted elsewhere despite the bloodshed before me. Had she been wandering through the forest all along, watching and guiding over me? And was it simply just an unlucky misfortune that such an insane cat had discovered her? I blinked as Kestrelwing fought back, but failed, and Adderstar dealt him the death blow.
Good. He deserved it.
Silence filled the forest as Kestrelwing inhaled for the last time. Adderstar looked at me sympathetically. "I'm sorry," he said sadly. I shook my head. It was in the past. I held nothing against him or the Clan right now. Nothing really mattered at all anymore.
fast forward to after lilypaw's warrior ceremony; 20 moons
Depression gnawed at me like a hungry fox, but I had to get up today. Mom was gone, and so was dad - but I wasn't. Today I would do it. I want to become something, to make mom proud. I want to have power. I need to be more than the empty waste of space I am.
I sucked in a deep breath, hoping to inhale some courage with it, and pushed into Adderstar's den. "Lilybird?" His green eyes were filled with relief as I entered. After... everything had happened, we had talked, and quickly bonded. He shared his sense of humor with me, and in a way, I kind of grew to be like him. But I always kept myself slightly distant, even though I sensed he had feelings for me. Today, I would use that to my advantage.
Guilt picked at my brain but I chose to ignore it. "Hello, Adderstar," I murmured, my voice slow and heavy. He blinked, his brown fur sticking up slightly. I slunk into his den, my body moving gracefully. "I'm sorry I haven't talked to you much recently. I've been going through stuff..."
He looked lost. "Lilybird, I-"
I held my tail up to his mouth, blinking slowly. "...but I've been so much better recently. I just want you to know that I think I can do so much more for this Clan than you know."
Adderstar sighed. "I know. I've been picking my brains trying to choose our next deputy... such a shame for us to lose Duskclaw like that..." He looked at his paws forlornly. I licked his ear reassuringly. A small shock seemed to go through him as he jumped slightly. I smiled charmingly.
"I'm sure you'll make the right choice." I purred and turned to leave, my tail whisking along his chest. I moved my hips in unison as I sashayed out, feeling gloriously deviant as I was met with the outside air.
Pretty soon, I might not be just Lilybird, depressed warrior of ThunderClan, but Lilybird, deputy of ThunderClan.
THE OVERVIEW ,
pros.
- outgoing
- likeable
- funny
- smart
- loyal
- friendly
- open-minded
- agile
- good eyesight
cons.
- trickster
- manipulative
- overbearing
- suffers from depression
- bad self-image
- snappy
- insecure
- small
- bad tracking skills
- doesn't feel as if she can fall in love
habits.
- ears and tail twitch when she's nervous
- voice gets high-pitched when she's angry
- has a tendency to make others uncomfortable with her
- laughs a lot
likes.
- toms
- others with a sense of humor
- joking around
- helping others
- talking
- company
- feeling loved
- flowers
dislikes.
- dry senses of humor
- working
- quiet
- cats smarter than her
- loneliness
- being outdone
- bugs
- loving others
- dark brown fur
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